18 months ago I finished high-school, this was I think both the best and worst thing that has ever happened to me. Some of this particular post only those in my inner circle of people will fully understand the rest of you I only expect to understand bits and pieces of it, thats ok feel free to ask me to explain.
So I finished high-school 18 months ago. Now the more typical pattern of someone who has finished high-school in Australia is to aim to gain entrance into university. Admittedly my grades had slipped a bit, but I was still semi-hopeful of a minor miracle. This miracle I was hoping did not eventuate - the following 18 months till now, I have tried my hand at many different things, many different ways of living, loving and learning. I held a lot of anger and resentment towards my parents in the last 18 months.
I felt they had screwed me over, from forcing me to change schools at the start of my final year. I was on track for some outstanding results where I was. I felt that I had lost the chance at this. It has only been very recently with a lot of work with my support team, that I've been able to see that my parents were only doing what they thought was the best thing at the time, and doing what they had to. I must admit I am very grateful towards them for making that tough choice, after all I would rather have a mother then not. Also I would not have found out as much about myself as I have in the 18 months since I graduated high school. I have finally let go of my hate, let go of my anger, let go of my resentment.
The reason I'm talking about all this, is that about 4 weeks two of my closest friends, who are both basically sisters to me. In two separate conversations, both gave me a right rocket up my arse, and both said in know uncertain terms that I needed to sit down and assess where my life was at, and which way my priorities should be. From these conversation I decided to put in some university applications, on the basis of "stuff it!! I have nothing left to loose!" The result of these applications was an offer from Central Queensland University to study a Bachelor of Arts at their Rockhampton campus.
From my time in Blackwater I have numerous friends, friends who are family and family friends in Rockhampton, with more in Blackwater, which is only a relatively short two hour drive inland. Finally I feel as though I have direction back in my life, I feel as though I have a purpose again. Most of all I am genuinely excited and happy to be alive and live each day. This I both what I want to do and what I need to do. I look forward to the challenge placed in front of me, I look forward to catching up with old friends and seeing whats new, and what the goss is. I look forward to living on the campus in college (my dad is so jealous)!
Bring On Life!